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3 - 26 - 02
1:02am
Once again you awake inside me, flailing you arms about as if to damage any part of me you come in contact with. With no motive, no direction, and a hunger for wrath you push onward.
Deeper, and deeper you drive your spikes of sadness into my once seemingly impervious heart. Many times we have taken turns being in control, and reclaiming it before I thought it to be the last.
Having thought I could vanquish, or tame you may have been arrogant on my behalf...and now I pay for this arrogance. I do not wish you a part of me, and never did in the first place...I did not request such a presence, but was humbled by you none the less.
For me to change would mean for you to die...as much as I want this, you have become almost comfortable to me. The body learns to become numb to a constant dull pain after time...in my loneliest times you remind me that you were still there.
You are a demon of a companion....but a companion no less. I can push them all away, but you still hide behind my eyes, in my heart, and in my being.
If I shun you I shun a part of myself...but if I embrace you I embrace all that would see me fall. I'm tired of giving you power, and now I will find a way to take it away...